Wanting The End

I have some time, I can do this now,
But I'll wait some more and start somehow.
I have some time, won't panic yet,
And just like that goes another sunset.
 
I wish for some things so hard it seems,
I'll will them to me with my daydreams.
I wish for some things when I fully know,
That I don't deserve them without sweating the plough.
 
I know the answers that my questions beg,
I just condemn them into a sub-conscious corner instead.
I know the answers that my problems ask,
And yet here I am, masquerading in a mask.
 
I wish I could tear my mouth apart,
Reach down inside and pull out my heart.
I wish I could tear into that bloody mess,
And sort out these troubles that I have confessed.
 
Nothing will happen by writing these words,
By rhyming this broken glass' shards,
Nothing will happen by wanting the end,
I'll just have to buck up and start over again.

Freestyle fitness

If your aim is body-building, I'm not sure if this is the post for you. If you are looking to remain fit, strong and in lean shape, read on.

I am a huge advocate of doing freestyle exercises, rather than working out in the gym. Anywhere, anytime exercises, where the only equipment you need is yourself and the floor. There are four exercises which I feel are all that you need to get into splendid shape and remain fighting fit.
1. Push-ups
2. Pull-ups
3. Surya Namaskar
4. Skipping
Of the above, if you cannot manage everything, the least you should do is Surya Namaskar. It exercises all the muscles in your body extremely well. People who are on the heavier side can start with the 12-step Surya Namaskar. Others can do this version of the Surya Namaskar.
For skipping, you don't necessarily need a skipping-rope. Skipping on-the-spot whilst moving your wrists will do as well.
There are many reasons why doing push-ups and pull-ups is way better than lifting dumbells and weights in the gym. One basic reason is, when you are doing push-ups and pull-ups, you are in fact, unwittingly lifting almost your entire body weight; something that you cannot usually do while lifting weights. What more would you want? Imagine trying to lift bars or doing benchpress equal to 60 kgs, 70 kgs or whatever your weight is. Almost impossible!
If you can supplement these exercises with swimming, nothing like it. This is also for people looking to lose a lot of weight. Please invest in a pool membership, a good pair of swimming costume, cap, goggles and ear plugs. Learn and start swimming regularly. You will get instant results.
As to how many counts and sets of each exercise you should do, it depends on your body type, weight and such things. I'd suggest that with these exercises in mind, consult any physical trainer to guide you on this aspect.

Disclaimer: I am not a qualified fitness instructor. These observations are largely based on my experiences over the years in my constant endeavor to remain fit. I believe they will help everyone as they have helped me and many others with splendid results.

Today

We look back
We peek ahead
We strain our neck standing where we are.

We want to cover our tracks
We want a red carpet rolled out
While we stand on the quicksand of today.

We want one eye at the back of our head,
While the two in front gaze far ahead,
Not bothered with where we tread.

The ghosts of the past haunt us,
The uncertainties of the future taunt us,
But our biggest punishment is, we must live in the present.

Toe the line

If there is one thing I’d love to do,
It would be to stray beyond the realm of your consent
to toe the line
- just a little bit, a tiny bit.
Enough to make you wonder if you should be cross
or allow yourself to feel refreshingly exploited,
In a way no one would have made you feel in a long time
Or maybe in a few weeks.
For your demeanor discourages initiative
but I know better, because I have come close more than once
And you have allowed me to, in spite of yourself.
And so I will toe the line
- this once, just this once
and you’ll know if you want more.

The Hidden Human

They say man is a social animal. There are two parts to this saying, both of which ring very true.

From the time we are born, there is a web that society slowly starts wrapping around us. We are largely oblivious and innocent as kids but as we grow up, we pull that web tighter around us. And all along, this action is voluntary on many levels.

"What is this web?" you might ask. Well, it's a web of societal norms, obligations, expectations and validation. And we happily fall prey because we are trained to find happiness and satisfaction in the fulfillment of the above.
There is nothing wrong with the idea of a society and it's norms, but when these norms have their genesis in a selfish motive or blind faith, every action performed towards fulfilling that end makes us lose our humanity. It's a gradual process which takes up more than half of our lifetime. Deep inside we all know the error of our ways but it's a selfish world and one has to be selfish to survive. The fact that such type of survival is also the reason for our contentment
 paints a morose picture of the animals we have become.

In the circle of life, we get only as much as we give. And so it holds true for humanity too. There are folks tearing our world apart in ways unknown even to themselves and there are a few others who only want to give and to help.
The bad news is, most of us selfishly fall in the former category. The good news is, there is a human being hidden inside all of us. We only need to look.